Tuesday, August 24, 2004
my ns life has been full of disasters.

my worst fears came true last friday when i was posted to aslc- back to tekong the $%^# island.

had a most 'memorable' last 2 wks in bslc. the first being that i put newspapers in my field pack for one of the fast marches and was found out. sheesh... fortunately i had explained dat my knee wasnt feeling well which was why i committed the 'blasphemy'. still, it got me a confinement... which i owe and still hav not served yet...

i reported sick after dat and din take my soc test. my result stands: fail.. hehe.

din do any of the close combat training lessons, missed the 6km fast march, then missed the finale 32km route march.

its true. i could hav done the march if i wanted to. my legs werent in dat bad a condition. but my mind wasnt willing... and i gave in. while everyone walked with high spirits i tended the water points in particularly low morale. still, wats done is done.

i finished my bslc course a failure. i passed of course, w/o pride.

and now ive ended up in aslc...

my leg pains when i think of it...

thinking of ooc...

aslc wouldnt be 1/2 as bad if it was in some other coy other than echo and foxtrot - the notoriously xiong companies. still, wats done is done.

in the army, u do wat they tell u to. no qns asked. booking in soon. i wanna cry. sispec isnt for sissies.

like me.