Wednesday, June 07, 2006
guess im now going thru my streaks of prolific (=excessive) writing. haah. =) just read on the straits times that a lawyer just ran away with $10million, and it brings a few tots 2 me. no im not going to comment on his crime; he is only a suspect after all. nor am i in a position to judge; "many who deserves life die, and many who live deserves death. do not be quick to pass judgment unto others." its a statement i live by. tho i really would say that this incident casts a shadow over the legal profession, which has already been a vilified one over decades. lawyers are a part of our judicial system, which is a pillar of society, and if they cant conduct themselves appropriately then who's gonna believe in justice? lawyers uphold not only their personal image but also that of the courts, and thus it is integral that they have little blemish on their character. its difficult to trust someone once u noe he cheats. :(

which brings me to the issue of trust. i think that i have a problem with trusting pple. not dat i see the bad in them; on the contrary i firmly believe i have never known a "bad" person in my life before. however i feel myself unable to talk freely to others. im afraid of opening up to others too much. im afraid they would see through the cheery benign exterior and find something evil. im afraid to let known my weaknesses and insecurities, and so i bury and hide them. i have many frens, some closer than most, but frens shldnt be onli those who go out and have fun with you. they shld hear u when u need a listening ear, talk 2 u when u are feeling low, encourage you when u need motivation. dats what frens are for. i myself have been a lousy fren. so when i found Jesus i wanted so much for Him 2b true.

and He is. the only fren i wholly trust. :) i behave like a child in front of Him.