Monday, June 05, 2006
reflections
wow its been some time since me updated this blog... time does fly. me thinks me keep this blog to stave off boredom when it comes and me just write whatever's in me small brain. arr what's with (the) me?
reading my past entries ive found so many things ive forgot during my first year of ns. incredible dat ive gone through all dat and still survive. haah. done things ive never dreamed i could do. many feel ns is a waste of time; for me its an experience... bitter at times but never to be forgotten. ord loh... it doesnt seem to resonate the way it shld... sigh im getting weary.
im abt to go forth to realize my dream.. one which i would never have thought possible. to be a lawyer. haah. who would have thought... little old me be a lawyer. right now im worrying if i would be up to the mark in uni. guess in time i would know. life is so challenging i never stress myself enough. what does dat mean i dont know.
i feel empty. reflections are especially clear when u have nothing to think abt, nothing to do. especially now dat i do not have a job. no more army. so what am i? what part do i play in the great scheme of things? who would miss me if im gone? i feel so small in this big old world. i pray to the Lord dat i may find strength to move on.
emerge has been fun and tiring at the same time. 4 days of services. it was an exceptional experience. yet somehow i felt something else. felt a painful familiar feeling. one i cant forget. when would it come to me? when would the pain go away?
wow its been some time since me updated this blog... time does fly. me thinks me keep this blog to stave off boredom when it comes and me just write whatever's in me small brain. arr what's with (the) me?
reading my past entries ive found so many things ive forgot during my first year of ns. incredible dat ive gone through all dat and still survive. haah. done things ive never dreamed i could do. many feel ns is a waste of time; for me its an experience... bitter at times but never to be forgotten. ord loh... it doesnt seem to resonate the way it shld... sigh im getting weary.
im abt to go forth to realize my dream.. one which i would never have thought possible. to be a lawyer. haah. who would have thought... little old me be a lawyer. right now im worrying if i would be up to the mark in uni. guess in time i would know. life is so challenging i never stress myself enough. what does dat mean i dont know.
i feel empty. reflections are especially clear when u have nothing to think abt, nothing to do. especially now dat i do not have a job. no more army. so what am i? what part do i play in the great scheme of things? who would miss me if im gone? i feel so small in this big old world. i pray to the Lord dat i may find strength to move on.
emerge has been fun and tiring at the same time. 4 days of services. it was an exceptional experience. yet somehow i felt something else. felt a painful familiar feeling. one i cant forget. when would it come to me? when would the pain go away?