Wednesday, June 06, 2007
fever @ 39.0 degrees
have not been updating this blog l8ly, though there are several things i want to blog abt. theres the emerge conference, theres the moving on of a friend's mum, and theres me falling ill twice in a span of a week.
it just seems so coincidental that i had to fall ill before emerge, get well just before the conference, and then get sick again right after the conference. sheesh. i went to the doc yesterday and my temperature was 39 degrees. i dun rmb having such a high fever b4. but i was really feeling terrible at work and had to ask my boss to let me go. miraculously i felt much better after the medicine and a couple hrs of sleep.
emerge was tiring. and throughout the 4 days i was persistently asking myself "have i emerged?" have i at least grown stronger spiritually from the last year? and i find myself unable to answer my own question. i seem 2b very happy with my status quo - going to church and praying for His blessings and just getting on with life. theres a hunger absent in me. i'll nv be a great man of faith.
and i saw courage personified in a friend when his mum passed away. right after his mum moved on fred continued in his dance competition as his mum had enjoyed his performance during the prelims. i'll nv be able to do smthing like that.
life is really so fragile. a week ago his mum was fine and suddenly she is gone. it really taught me to treasure all the pple arnd me, for i'll nv know when i'll not be able to see and talk to them anymore.
have not been updating this blog l8ly, though there are several things i want to blog abt. theres the emerge conference, theres the moving on of a friend's mum, and theres me falling ill twice in a span of a week.
it just seems so coincidental that i had to fall ill before emerge, get well just before the conference, and then get sick again right after the conference. sheesh. i went to the doc yesterday and my temperature was 39 degrees. i dun rmb having such a high fever b4. but i was really feeling terrible at work and had to ask my boss to let me go. miraculously i felt much better after the medicine and a couple hrs of sleep.
emerge was tiring. and throughout the 4 days i was persistently asking myself "have i emerged?" have i at least grown stronger spiritually from the last year? and i find myself unable to answer my own question. i seem 2b very happy with my status quo - going to church and praying for His blessings and just getting on with life. theres a hunger absent in me. i'll nv be a great man of faith.
and i saw courage personified in a friend when his mum passed away. right after his mum moved on fred continued in his dance competition as his mum had enjoyed his performance during the prelims. i'll nv be able to do smthing like that.
life is really so fragile. a week ago his mum was fine and suddenly she is gone. it really taught me to treasure all the pple arnd me, for i'll nv know when i'll not be able to see and talk to them anymore.