Wednesday, December 31, 2008
resolutions, ramblings
given that 'pool are 3 points clear at the top of the league, and are playing just about the best football they've played since i was 9, things shld be all rosy, right?
well, no. cos club captain and best player in the team had to go get himself charged for assault at the very time when we have a realistic chance for a title challenge. fortunately, i'm patient. having waited for over a decade, i can wait some more.
no, actually i can't, damn it. every season i tell myself this is it. fa cups and champions league along the way did help, but since most of the season is concerned with the league, not winning it sucks. like really.
which in a rather sad way does reflect my life. little successes overwhelmed by an overarching failure. not living up to expectations. every year i tell myself that this is it. my year of breakthrough. but every year things remain the same. same old directionless me. happy-to-be-mediocre me.
but 2009 is gonna be a critical juncture in my life. i need settle and enjoy myself in a foreign land, since half of 2009 will be spent in hk. i need to apply for a law firm, start thinking about my career. i need to pass my ippt, cos if i don't i'll probably end up rt-ing until i'm 45. i need bible lessons. i need year 4 sem 1 to be perfect. i need to get up, get out and learn new stuff cos i refuse to stagnate anymore.
i need to tell myself that all these will be done in Jesus' name.
given that 'pool are 3 points clear at the top of the league, and are playing just about the best football they've played since i was 9, things shld be all rosy, right?
well, no. cos club captain and best player in the team had to go get himself charged for assault at the very time when we have a realistic chance for a title challenge. fortunately, i'm patient. having waited for over a decade, i can wait some more.
no, actually i can't, damn it. every season i tell myself this is it. fa cups and champions league along the way did help, but since most of the season is concerned with the league, not winning it sucks. like really.
which in a rather sad way does reflect my life. little successes overwhelmed by an overarching failure. not living up to expectations. every year i tell myself that this is it. my year of breakthrough. but every year things remain the same. same old directionless me. happy-to-be-mediocre me.
but 2009 is gonna be a critical juncture in my life. i need settle and enjoy myself in a foreign land, since half of 2009 will be spent in hk. i need to apply for a law firm, start thinking about my career. i need to pass my ippt, cos if i don't i'll probably end up rt-ing until i'm 45. i need bible lessons. i need year 4 sem 1 to be perfect. i need to get up, get out and learn new stuff cos i refuse to stagnate anymore.
i need to tell myself that all these will be done in Jesus' name.