Thursday, March 25, 2010
endings are most painful
one more month to the exams. haha. not funny. lots to study still. lots at stake. yet lots to think back upon too. perhaps now is not the time to reminisce about the past 4 years yet, but tmr is collegiate dinner, and it somehow starts a countdown to the end.
maybe i should write something abt it. it was after all an important part of my past 4 years. and probably the most important lesson i learned. was i sad about it? very. i cried. i drank. i kind of lost myself, just trying to forget. and i knew it was all my fault. for not being there. for not appreciating. for not making her feel loved. for making her upset all the time.
and so here i am. and there she is, with someone else. in all honesty i felt jealous at first. but i knew it was for the best. she wasn't happy with me. she is happy now.
and i learned, the most important thing, is that we make the people around us happy. this is the reason we're around. i don't want to make ppl unhappy anymore.
one more month to the exams. haha. not funny. lots to study still. lots at stake. yet lots to think back upon too. perhaps now is not the time to reminisce about the past 4 years yet, but tmr is collegiate dinner, and it somehow starts a countdown to the end.
maybe i should write something abt it. it was after all an important part of my past 4 years. and probably the most important lesson i learned. was i sad about it? very. i cried. i drank. i kind of lost myself, just trying to forget. and i knew it was all my fault. for not being there. for not appreciating. for not making her feel loved. for making her upset all the time.
and so here i am. and there she is, with someone else. in all honesty i felt jealous at first. but i knew it was for the best. she wasn't happy with me. she is happy now.
and i learned, the most important thing, is that we make the people around us happy. this is the reason we're around. i don't want to make ppl unhappy anymore.