Sunday, March 03, 2013
direction
after a 2 week break, it's back to work. as always, there will be too many deals, too many emails, too many things i don't know and do not have the motivation to find out. perhaps this is a sign that i should move on. if work is such a daily struggle, then life is as well, since work is synonymous with life at times. this job has this effect.
i'm not sure what i dislike most. the loss of freedom? being chained to my blackberry all the time is not the way i envision the next few years of my life. the inability to ask questions? having such a boss takes away the chance for learning. the lack of ppl that i can talk to at work? or just the fact that my job does not interest me anymore, and has no meaning to me other than the paycheck at the end of the month.
the break was too short. but which break isn't? i enjoyed myself though. travelling to a foreign land always has its excitement, and travelling to a rather foreign climate for the first time brought an even greater sense of adventure. i'm glad that you were there with me. without you, i would have felt lost, and would have most probably actually been lost. but you were there, and together we found all the places i had wanted to see, and did all the things i had set out to do. thank you.
i probably need someone to give me some direction in the way of my career as well. i dislike where i am, yet i know that if i persevere, i'd reap greater rewards. yet i feel tired, and want to call it quits already. ah, choices, choices and opportunities.
after a 2 week break, it's back to work. as always, there will be too many deals, too many emails, too many things i don't know and do not have the motivation to find out. perhaps this is a sign that i should move on. if work is such a daily struggle, then life is as well, since work is synonymous with life at times. this job has this effect.
i'm not sure what i dislike most. the loss of freedom? being chained to my blackberry all the time is not the way i envision the next few years of my life. the inability to ask questions? having such a boss takes away the chance for learning. the lack of ppl that i can talk to at work? or just the fact that my job does not interest me anymore, and has no meaning to me other than the paycheck at the end of the month.
the break was too short. but which break isn't? i enjoyed myself though. travelling to a foreign land always has its excitement, and travelling to a rather foreign climate for the first time brought an even greater sense of adventure. i'm glad that you were there with me. without you, i would have felt lost, and would have most probably actually been lost. but you were there, and together we found all the places i had wanted to see, and did all the things i had set out to do. thank you.
i probably need someone to give me some direction in the way of my career as well. i dislike where i am, yet i know that if i persevere, i'd reap greater rewards. yet i feel tired, and want to call it quits already. ah, choices, choices and opportunities.